All I’ve wanted was to be this soda pop shop, nineteen fifties dream girl and for the most part, I am.
But my whole life I’ve had this darkness that would never leave my side and had always popped up inside of my head, making itself home within side of my brain.
I always know it is there, and no, I’m not asking for it to stop from being there either.
I just want someone to understand and help me figure out what I can do to help keep the waves calm before they come crashing down upon the ocean’s edge.
There are parts of me who love who I am and what I have become, even on my darkest of days. You can clearly tell which side or mood I am in depending on what I choose to wear that day, haven’t you seen that by now? No?
Let me put it out there like this:
When I decide to be girly and bubbly, that means I’m trying to be as light as a feather, in love with life and happy as can be. When I have on darker clothes, known as my rocker girl kind of look, that’s when I know something is going to happen and I need to take charge, independent and strong enough to stand on my own. Both sides have their differences, but one remains the same; the most difficult thing above all is the consequences I have to face for those moments, the cons so to speak.
When I am light, I am sensitive and can easily get hurt. When I am hurt, I will hide away and cry until I feel better or worse, angry beyond belief. That’s what shall lead us into the downsides of miss independence herself. Yes, I have a good head on my shoulders, but there can be times where anyone on this planet can be reckless and while angered, it is dangerous if not centered and controlled at something where not a soul can be harmed, especially my own. Mischievous as can be and misunderstood is my name to this very game. No one knows the rules to truly play, but if they decide to lose or cheat there will be hell to pay.
LUELLA VIOLET FOSTER 💧 ⠀⠀
— MOTHER OF ELODIE. ARIES. MODEL. OCCASIONAL SINGER. VINYL COLLECTOR. ANIMAL LOVER. STUBBORN. CLUMSY. MEME QUEEN. CARDI B AND ROBERT DOWNEY JR ENTHUSIAST. INDECISIVE. ELIZA ADMIRER. MAKEUP HOARDER. PERFECTIONIST. DISNEY OBSESSED. TEA ADDICT. LOVES NAPS. LIKE AND COMMENT FOR A RATE.
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