For the past 10 yrs this lady has been putting up with me .. she has made me grow into the person am today with our boys and I can say I’m very happy you have been my back bone for so many yrs I love ya babe #wifematerial#wifey💍 #badassmofo#backbone
Because 2 of my abusers and one of their victims has contacted me in the last couple months; one today, I needed some time to reflect. (CW: self-mutilation/abuse). First photo was me this past month. I am happy. Making silly faces, wearing my #djed earrings. #backbone
I have excoriation disorder. I've had it since I can remember... like 3 year old memories. It used to just be my thumbs. As I got older it moved to my fingers. Once I watched my brother get his acne borred out of his face by my mother's hands as he was pressed into the toilet seat, I couldn't stop picking my own face.
My freshman college roommate introduced me to picking the hair follicles on my legs. I've picked them so bad they've grown abcesses before, multiple times.
I don't know what to tell you, it feels good. It feels like I'm blood-letting the hate out of me. My parents never got that about us. The reasons their children hurt themselves.
It gets worse when I'm angry, scared, stressed, obviously. I used to have an open bloody wound on every finger. I want you to look at what my thumb looks like this week. (Second picture). Then look at the pictures of me in college. Look at my face. Look at the scars. It hurts me just looking at it. Look at the notes I started taking back in 2015 about what was happening to me.
One of my goals of my vision statement the last two years has been to figure out how to get my excoriation under control. I can safely say today that I have.
The bigger point here is that I was never going to be able to fix this by worrying about if my abusers suffer now, by seeking revenge for what they did to me and the rest of their children. I got this from turning inward. By looking to heal myself. It's taken me the better part of a decade, countless hours of reading and research, a partner who knows how to bring me back, therapy, journaling, and still, it's not healed. I will never be rid of this disorder, but I can use it for what it is; an outward alarm that something inside needs help.
None of that involves my abusers. They're worth nothing now. #progresspic#dermotillomania#excoriationdisorder#childhoodtrauma#selfie#selfworthselfie
My faith is an important part of my life and over the years I've learnt that it takes a proud man to say he doesn't need anything. It has been a quiet strength and a backbone through a lot of difficult times.
Happppppyyyyyy Birthdayyyyyy Som3a Happy Birthday to my best brother/Friend You are The best . I love to annoy you , worry you 👅and disturb you . Having great brother like you is the best thing that anyone could wish❤️❤️ I'm so luckyyy . I simply love you 😘 words can't describe how much I love you 😘 💕 God bless you bro 😉 Happy Birthday 🎉🎊🎈a7la bashmohmands fel Donia ❤️❤️ I love you so much ❤️❤️ enta 3ref 8lwtak 3ndy m3 5n2tna m3 kolo bs htfdl a7la a5 f hayaty #Backbone#supporter 💪🏻Rbna y5leek lya😘😘 Kol sana w enta tayb w obal 1000000000000 sana 😘😘🎈🎈🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎁❤️
I love you forever My Heart ♥😍😍😘, Regrann from @esther_ukeme_francis - This man right here??? No words!🙌
For the times you do the chores, beg me to sleep and you take care of Ronel, wake me up to sumptuous meals prepared by you, pamper me..... Thank you😆. You feed my spirit, soul and body!
Thank you for being an amazing husband and a great father. Ronel is literally obsessed about you (I'm jealous most times 😢).
Thank you for all you do to make us comfortable... You're irreplaceable!😘 Who wouldn't love a man like you??🙆
I would never take these things for granted😧. I'm so thankful to God and honoured to be doing life with you.
I love you so much Sugar B!
We have already landed on the other side of the world and are getting ready to open Backbone as part of @galwayintarts!
We are so excited to be back in lovely Galway and can’t for all the Guinness and fish & chips... after the show tonight of course!