Today I found the charger for my sony camera, the camera I specifically bought for makeup looks.
These photos are from 2016. I remember watching @nikkietutorials the power of makeup and being obsessed with it because that is what I love about makeup. How it can make you feel like a feirce queen ready to take on anything that comes your way.
I don't remember if I even posted these back then, I may have posted then deleted pretty quick. You see I have this reoccurring habit. I undervalue myself to the extreme. I can honestly say that there are very few times where I have actually thought I was good at something. As I put these 2 images side by side to create the full effect I sat there and thought "man you are dumb, how could you think you were not good enough, that you had no skill at all" I am all about cheering on others and telling them how amazing they are even when they are in the exact same field as me, trying to reach the same goals like I would probably put someone else's name forward for some incredible opportunity instead of my own.
The black and white version of this is even more personal. Now I know my freckles are not that intense in person well not my face ones but my freckles were the whole reason why I started wearing make up as a teenager. It wasn't cool to be a freckley ginger when I was growing up so naturally I caked on the most pale foundation I could find and I dyed my hair blonde to try not be bullied as much.
Self love is really hard sometimes, I know I am a strong person but I have also put up massive walls around me. I know that I need to be giving myself the same love and kindness that I give to others (and accept it from others) and believe in myself more and more every single day. It might only be a tiny baby step each day but at least I'm moving forward 💜💜💜
Excuse my “I just woke up and I look like an unsmiling potato” face (I wonder what a smiling potato looks like?) 😂
Winter makes getting/staying fit hard. Trust me, I know. But even though ya bed is so warm and snuggly and you really don’t wanna get up, the post-workout feeling is always worth it! That’s what I like to tell myself, anyway... 💪🏼 🏋🏼♀️