This man turned 39 today.
He woke up early to a crying baby who wouldn’t settle.
He cooked a big steak breakfast for us and my parents.
..and then he went shopping for his own birthday presents.
It’s days like today where I feel most angry and struggle with seeing everything in a positive light.
It’s days like today that I wish I could treat him to a relaxing day.
It’s days like today that I wish I was one less person he had to look after.
John is an amazing man and an incredible husband and dad.. and I hear his father-in-law is pretty stoked about him too
@johnalexander_thomson I love you. Happy birthday!!
John with a 4 month old Havanah.. he looks almost the same, a whole 6 years later!!
Today ☀️ I’m scared if I pinch myself hard enough I might wake up, at home in bed, in agony, unable to move from extreme exhaustion and torturous symptoms from head to toe .... in constant fear unable to eat, speak, think.... I can’t believe how far I have come 💙🦋 Thanks Mum, both deserving of a break together 💙
Blueberry delight. Simple berries.
They are so good !!!
We were out for a walk today and found a garage sale. I asked about the table a whole bunch of stuff was on, and how much it was. He said I could just have it!! Come and get it after I am done he said !
Feeling tremendous gratitude.
It is very weathered. But it is solid wood and I have been looking for a kitchen table for almost 5 years. We have been using one our landlord leant us.
If you don't live with chemical sensitivities, it is harder to understand the scope of the gratitude for even a beaten up wood table.
This table does not smell like anything.
I want to repeat that.
This table does not smell like anything.
It has no scent from any products.. no candles, no air "freshener" (really that stuff is toxic goo) , no laundry smell. Nothing. It is a bit of a miracle.
I have not had a table for almost 5 years because they are hard to find that don't have either chemical residue from the table itself (formaldehyde in glues , paints, ) or from the scents in a store, or houses.
If you have any chronic illness...what is not talked about often enough is the need to rid your home of chemicals and fragrances hiding out in anything and everything all over your home and vehicle.
You may not know that your sunscreen, shampoo, laundry products or cleaning supplies are harming you,even if they say they are organic . If they have any fragrance they are a problem.
Essential oils may be a problem too. Solvents used to get the oils out , plus even the essential oils themselves need to be carefully used. They are powerful substances.
I will talk more about this because within the community it is not spoken of much , if ever.
I see a lot about food and supplement. Which are ingested in the body. Buy you breathe and your skin absorbs so much into you.
Good morning ☀️☀️. It’s been a very hectic few weeks, something I’ll update you on over the forthcoming weeks, but without the strategies I’ve built up over the years using both nutrition and energy therapies I would have been floored. Don’t get me wrong it gets hard, really hard sometimes living with Chronic illness, having a family, working etc... As I have grown & evolved I have had to evolve new strategies to adapt with change.
When you choose to embrace this kind of journey it’s important to not expect perfection, to flow with the ups and down and be open to learning about yourself and what helps your mind and body to function the best it can. If I could write a one process works for all plan I would but that doesn’t exist as we have all encountered different life experiences & challenges in our lives and have different genetic makeup’s. There are certain changes that will inevitably help everyone such as avoiding processed foods, sugary foods, too much alcohol and eating more fresh vegetables and fruit etc.... but then there is the further step of incorporating a variety of fruits, vegetables, herbs and spices with certain properties that support your needs and further aid the recovery process. This part of the journey tends to be more specific to each and every individual. You won’t go wrong incorporating as many vegetables, herbs, spices as you like and moderate amounts of fruit but if you tune into your body’s energy system you will feel that some foods resonate better with you at certain times and some better at other times and this is something to listen to and take on board. This doesn’t mean eating loads of that particular food and nothing else, as balance is key, just maybe incorporate it into your diet, research its properties and see if these maybe the reason why you’re reaching out for it. Start building up your knowledge of what eases things for you and when.
NOTE: If you suffer from an eating disorder or OCD seek support from a professional.
Wishing you a calm and easy week❤️🍃🍃🍃
This past week has been one of the toughest weeks for me. Symptoms that I've been able to work around, like low blood pressure and rapid heart rate, have gone full force on me and are affecting me now 100% of the time. I have to consume sodium and electrolytes every other hour it seems to avoid passing out and I can't stay up long enough for nothing. Too dizzy, weak, and lightheaded. The couch has been my home. Some days, to be honest, I just don't feel like being alive. I've never had any negative thoughts, so please don't take that wrong.😬 But dealing with all this health stuff and not feeling well, ever, has been extremely overwhelming and it has worn me allll the way down. Today has been extra tough.
Anyways... I heard this song on the radio the other day and Shazam'd it. I was laying here on the couch and my phone just happened to send me a notification reminding me that I Shazam'd this song lol. So random... Or was it 🤨😆 So I listened to it. And I stay reminded that no matter what these storms look and feel like... I will rise again. And come out better than I was before 😭☝🏼😊
The time that passes through the light of each day brings me to the end with enlightenment and yet more questions. We ask questions of life then search for the answers but do we ever find them? In all the hours of illness I wondered why is this happening to me? What is the reason I lived through that? What is my purpose? What am I here for or to do?
Each of us is here in body, mind, spirit and soul. Sometimes I feel like a lost soul not sure of what I'm to do, unsure of how to utilize what I have to offer. In what direction should I take next? What is going to be beneficial to others yet just as beneficial for me.
The body is a miraculous thing! It creates, nourishes, breathes, rejuvenates, sheds, produces. Is it that we are unaware of what the body can do and what it's purpose is until illness sets in? And then what? Is that the time we are to realize the purpose of the body?
The body is a vessel that is to be respected, cared for and nurtured. We are to teach our counterparts the same. But we don't. We abuse, neglect, punish, abandon what is truly the utmost important thing we have in this world.
Finding my path after illness is extremely important to me. Taking this time to figure out what I am here for. Why I survived the last years and what I'm suppose to do with what I have learned? Where do I feel is the best for me to be? Are some pressing matters on my mind lately.
My illness has taught my about life, my body and health. Now, it's time for me to prepare to share that with others in more depth than what I post on my blog.
0 192 hours ago
What did I lose?
Well...I'm not exactly sure.
Please, my confusion you must excuse...
I just know I must find a cure.
⬇(read full poem below)⬇
Don't Give Up On Yourself
- Katy A. Brown
I'm on my way.
They may ask me, "Where to?" Well, that I cannot say...
For even I have no clue.
I know it's rather far,
For it has to make me whole.
The road to the stars,
The path to my soul.
I must go alone,
But I'll miss you all, believe me.
I must travel into the unknown,
I must sail all of the seas.
You see, I've lost something of mine.
It's special and grand...
Magnificent in its design.
How I lost it is hard to understand.
What did I lose?
Well...I'm not exactly sure.
Please, my confusion you must excuse...
I just know I must find a cure.
I have a terrible disease,
The name of it escapes me.
But it stops your hair from blowing in the breeze.
It stops your heart from feeling free.
I think it's called "Lack of Adventure," But correct me if I'm wrong.
That is why I must go on this venture,
For my very essence I must prolong.
I think I may have left my heart somewhere
Or the part of me that believes....
I'll be back soon, I swear!
But for awhile, I must leave.
I know I'm on my way,
And though I may not know where
Myself I cannot betray...
For I know I'm somewhere out there.
Intermittent fasting (IF) is super popular right now, but is it all it’s cracked up to be?
First, what is IF?
It can be done any number of ways, but most commonly a person will eat all their food during an 8hr time frame (maybe 11AM-7PM) and fast the rest of the day.
IF can have some benefits, as any form of fasting will cleanse the liver.
When there isn’t enough fuel around, the liver will start to release stored sugar & fats.
If your body is overrun with toxins (from plastics, medications, solvents, pesticides, etc.) it will store these compounds in fat tissue.
If the body released a lot of fat at once (due to fasting), it could be flooded with toxins, leaving you quite sick.
This is why many people struggle to lose weight. Their toxic burden is too high. The body won’t let go of the fat to protect you. .
IF can be a gentle way of cleansing small amounts of fat.
IF can also be helpful for those with digestive issues, as it gives the gastrointestinal tract a break. It can help with healing an inflamed gut.
Avoid IF if you are:
Or if you have symptoms of;
💚Blood sugar crashes (dizzy, cranky, fatigue, shaky, etc.)
💚Neurologic fatigue (numbness, tingling, fatigue, migraines, tinnitus, etc.)
💚Adrenal fatigue (afternoon crash, difficulty sleeping through the night, frequent urination, low sex drive, etc.)
You should also avoid fasting of any type of you haven’t worked on reducing your toxic burden.
You need to be on a very clean diet of whole, unprocessed foods, lots of fluids (sorry no alcohol or caffeine!), & high in raw fruits & veggies.
Fasting done incorrectly can force the liver to dump toxins into the blood stream and actually result in later weight gain.
Although IF has benefits, I don’t recommend any type of fasting for most people. There’s a lot of work that comes before fasting. Trying to fast before you’re ready will not give great benefits and can actually do more harm than good.
Feeling blessed to end the week by dance sweating and slaying 😆 In the midst of busy week of teaching and training I am so excited to be putting in work to launch ThrivebyCandyceHeather.com ✨
One of the things I’m most excited about when it comes to launching my website and blog is the opportunity to empower my tribe of warriors to live their best life through life changing fitness, nutrition, and lifestyle coaching. #launchwhatyoulove
I explored a new trail today and it felt SO good! 💛💛It made me realize that we were CREATED for ADVENTURE and spending time in nature to experience God’s beauty. 💫 • • • • • •
Despite my diagnosis, I try to do a lot. There are things I still can’t or don’t do because I don’t feel well or I’m fearful of how it will make me feel. I could spend all of my days complaining about what I can’t do but that isn’t Gods intention for me. He wants my chains to break because of my praise not my praise to break because of my chains. After a few years of battling this illness and injuries, the one thing I miss most is running and exploring new areas. Today God reignited my soul on this run! Feeling refreshed and hopeful because of the strength God has allowed me to have through resting, healing my body with foods and supplementation and surrounding myself with people who dream with me and pray for me ✨✨ • • • • • •
Have you lost a passion of yours because of an illness? Time? A career? A relationship? I highly recommend you pick it back up!! • • • • • •
The weekend is never long enough and it’s harder every time he leaves!😭 But he also makes me the happiest person in the world and I love him more and more if that’s even possible💕 #longdistancemarriage#longdistancecouple
2 313 hours ago
So I had a bit of a bender weekend, people often question how I drink and why I do it if it makes my symptoms worse etc. the answer is so simple - “because I want too.” I’m 22 years old, I really enjoy partying, I’ve already cut out so much from my life in order to be a healthier version of myself, I’ve cut down on how much I drink drastically too! However having a few vodkas or wines with my friends, dancing, talking, laughing, crying and making memories is something I enjoy doing. Im not ever going to cut all things bad from my life, and I’ll never jump on here and pretend to be someone/something that I’m not too you all. My life and identity is not defined by Endometriosis. Live a balanced life, make healthier decisions, try to beat this disease - yes all of these things should be a priority in your life. But honestly - GO AND LIVE UR LIFE AND ENJOY IT HOW YOU LIKE TOO❤️❤️ #preach
5 1783 hours ago
I hadn’t been to physio for four months. Four long months snowed under with other, more important, medical appointments, and depression.
Now I remember why I go (and need to) regularly. Pain management!
I never realise how tight different muscles are until I’m lying there with my physio digging knuckles and elbows into me while I groan (or shout!) in pain.
My physio is extra gentle, excellent with chronic illness, understanding of trauma, and so, so kind.
Seeing her regularly also keeps me accountable on the (chronic illness appropriate) exercise side of things. She knows when I have been exercising and stretching. My painfully tight muscles tell on me every single time.
People keep asking me what I'm doing. The biggest thing has been this program, 2b mindset. It's all about eating and how to eat. It's not a diet, it's a mindset and people can see it works. I've slowly been adding more recipes from it into my daily life and also using the principles. I see the change and I can feel it. Less pain and more energy. For someone who has battled chronic illness for a few years now I can say it has been wonderful. Want some free information? Drop a message and I'll be sure to get you started on your journey! 😎 @2bmindset@ilanamuhlsteinrd
Yesterday was a huge conquer for me and Lola and Annie (my anxiety, you know if you’ve been following me from the start). I took a huge plunge and went to a major event in NY where there was a lot of walking, a lot of people and crowds! I didn’t think I could do it with everything that was going on healthwise for me. But I did it! I refused to stay in my house all summer and let my MS and anxiety rule my life. I know it won’t be able to do it all like everyone else but I can prove to myself that I can achieve goals. 🙏🏽 So I’m proud of myself and I’ll be resting forever to recoup from this lol but it was so worth it! Who else suffers with anxiety? .
There is such a mental game when it come to chronic illness.
I have a minor procedure tomorrow and I could choice to be extremely frustrated and overwhelmed or I can choice to move on. Keep going with options I’ve been handed.
HOME 🏡 again from the hospital, and with a few of my favorite 💐 things: my one true love, my silly plastic dino planter, and my sleepy doglets. 🐶
I feel like I have been through the ringer. I need to rest, accept that all these seizures happened and work through all the emotions. For now, I am bummed to miss my concert, but happy to be with Chris.
I self-cared SO HARD this week. Yoni steams, Mayan massage, castor oil heat packs, yoga, meditation, slow walks, and playing with CBD/THC ratios. This condition is so much work! It’s all in good faith that these practices have healed many for thousands of years and will accumulate into healing and pain management that will make my likely path to surgery less painful and more effective.
Eat today, what your body will thank you for tomorrow.
This is one of many mantras that I share with you in this post. They may sound familiar or even cliche', but they resonate with me after making a lifetimes worth of poor eating choices. @medicalmedium has taught us that we will need to make up for each and every unhealthy meal that we put into our bodies.
Your food choices provide you with either the purest and most effective form of medicine or the slowest form of poison.
Are you concerned about the time it would take for you to prepare healthier food? If you think you don't have time for healthy eating, you'll sooner or later have to find time for illness. Unfortunately, health is often not valued until sickness comes.
Are you concerned about what you might perceive as an extra cost for you to eat healthier? Your greatest wealth IS health. You can either pay for healthier choices now or pay for medical bills later. Which is really the more expensive? Medicine will only mask your symptoms but wise food choices will heal you.
Do you use junk food to console you? Food is fuel, not therapy. The junk food that you craved for an hour, or the healthy body you’ve craved for a lifetime? It’s your decision.
If your top concern is to lose weight, please know that you don’t need to eat LESS, you just need to eat RIGHT. When you eat natural foods without a label, you no longer need to count calories. Health is not about the weight you lose, but about the health you gain. There is no weight loss diet that will do for you what healthy eating does.
Eat plants - not food MADE in a plant. If you don’t recognize an ingredient, your body won’t either. The key to eating healthy? Avoid any food that has a TV commercial. Only eat what your great-great grandmother would recognize as food.
You are what you eat, so don’t be fast, cheap, easy or FAKE.
Stop eating C.R.A.P. -
🚫 C - carbonated drinks
🚫 R - refined sugars
🚫 A - artificial food
🚫 P - processed food
Don't learn the hard way like I did. Take care of your body, because it’s the only place in which you have to live.
Yes, I got on a Pinterest quotes binge. 😂 Can you tell?
@mabgraves, thank you for raising awareness with the #sickgirlselfie tag. For those who've been concerned about my health, there's been a pretty big twist.
I went to a geneticist to investigate my intense decline despite attempts to treat lyme and mold. My exam revealed physical traits usually indicative of serious genetic mitochondrial or neuromuscular disease. I've had these traits my entire life (even asked doctors about them, but was shrugged off). Now it's reached a late stage and is progressing very quickly.
I got a bunch of tests. Best case scenario would be one of the few disorders that can be treated with enzyme replacement therapy (although there's no guarantee of improvement). Worst case, it's one of the far more numerous degenerative diseases that have limited/no treatment options.
It could be two months before the genetic tests come back. Along with the constant blinding pain and rapidly decreasing ability to breathe, move and see, I have to endure the suspense of not knowing whether I have a chance at life, or only a short time to live. This is a devastating place to be. Sending love to all of you who have followed my situation and supported me along this insane journey. ❤️