I wrote weeks ago :
"Most of time I'm afraid to make a big choice.
I'm scared about pick a decision and regret or open a door cause it will close an other.
I'm scared to choose wrong.
I'm afraid to be scammed by the life.
I want so much that my life be "perfect" so I take time.
Maybe I can wait more and get better... or worst... or wait so long.
Maybe if I wait I'll miss what I had.
I can't know the future cause I write it but I doubt so much.
As they say maybe I'm thinking to much.
I'm not afraid to live. I'm afraid to fail. I'm afraid to be hurt. But this is the life.
And without bad times we can't appreciate the best."