“I AM going to miss high school. I’m a little scared, because when you mess up in high school, everyone’s like “It’s ok. You’re just in high school.” But now, I’ll have to be responsible (chuckles). I’m going to miss the connections I’ve made here.
And for those of you getting ready to start high school and are worried because you don’t fit in... Join one activity. Then join another. You can do that at Rockford. Join everything. If you join in activities I promise you’ll make friends.
Every activity I’ve been a part of here… I felt something emotionally, and I’m not a very emotional person. I can be very apathetic, actually, but every time I’ve participated in a group, club or sport here, I’ve left it a better person than when I started, and the activities I’ve participated in have helped me grow. It all comes down to talking to people. Reach out and talk.
I have friends in all sorts of groups, like the high school clichés... you know, the jocks, the nerds, the theatre kids… I can go in between groups and I have all sorts of friends, and it’s nice. It feels nice, and I want everyone to feel that, to be that open with each other. So my advice is to put yourself out there and participate. Show up. Yeah. Step one: Show up. Don’t sit there in class and just do your work and go home. If you want to enjoy high school to its fullest, participate. Why wouldn’t you?” #rockfrodrockers#classof2018#wearerockets#mystory
My daughter threw this romper at me last week and told me to wear it.
I told her, “No way. I haven’t earned the privilege of wearing shorts yet. These legs don’t deserve to be displayed.” Today when I saw the romper hanging in my closet, my words echoed and saddened me.
Not because I felt undeserving of wearing it, but because I was so unkind to myself and in front of my daughter.
I remembered the whole reason I started on this personal growth journey in the first place.
-It was because I knew that my children were never going to do as I tell them, they will however, do as I show them.
It’s not the preaching that matters, it’s the practice.
So today I pulled it out of the closet, reframed my negative self-talk, pumped myself full of the confidence I want for my daughters, and put the romper on.
I would never want my girls, or any female for that matter, to feel as though they had to “earn” the right to wear an article of clothing.
I’m still battling my self-judging mind, but my loving mind knows that the whole idea was ridiculous.
Sometimes I wonder if I would have ever come this far without my children. Without them, would I have been as motivated to grow?
Would I have worked this hard on the person I am and the person I am becoming?
I knew I could never look them in the eyes and tell them that they can be anything they want, that they can accomplish whatever their heart desires, and become all that they dream of becoming, if I didn’t live that out for them as an example.
This little romper is just one tiny little trail marker on the journey they inspired.
Post 2/2 - If I feel like I need to change something about myself or how I do things then I’ll do it, it won’t be instant or easy but it will eventually happen. I know this because it is happening now. 💗
Starting this coaching journey, starting to learn how I can actually make a difference in the world has been the hardest thing I’ve ever tried to do. But I will also tell you it’s been more worth it than anything I’ve ever forced myself to do because I’m finally feeling like I am changing. I finally feel like I am actually making progress in becoming the person I always thought I’d be and figuring out how to live MY best life. I finally feel like ME. ❤️🙌🏻 I also can say with 100% certainty that this opportunity really does change lives (if you put in the work) and now I know how I can really help others to make the same changes and start to change their lives and become the person they have always wanted to be too. 😃💕 I can see the strong, smart, independent, funny and beautiful person (with flaws of course) I am now and aways have been. I am not a perfect person and I know I never will be. But you know what? THATS OKAY! 🎉
For my religious people... prayers please... for my people who just believe in just something in general... positive thoughts please.. tomorrow embarks the day of the radioactive tracer that will be bestowed upon my innards... nerd it down... we are going to see if my stomach works at a rate higher than 34%. Best case scenario, the tube comes out... worse case scenario... tube stays in... and I get to have more moments of fight club scenes with my belly vs the tube. My birthday is coming close... I’d love to have this thing out by then... with that said... My eyes look great (left field)...kinda loving my face without makeup considering I’m just getting older. Eyes on the prize. Good vibes and butterflies.
You begin to enjoy life so much more when you love each day to the fullest! When you enjoy the food your eating and it’s not a diet anymore it has become a lifestyle or when you look forward to going to the gym! That’s how you know your mind has done a 360!
I am a totally different person, mentally and physically! I am so much happier, nicer, and friendlier! I am becoming fit, working on fitness goals and getting healthy!
I want to set a good example for my kids! I am trying to have a well rounded life! It’s all about balance!
I don’t know how to feel or act when I see pictures of myself anymore. I used to think “ I don’t even want to see the picture” because I was ashamed! Now I see myself and think “ Wow, I have came a long way! Look at how beautiful you are!” My self love is out the fucking window tonight! I am worth it! I am beautiful! I am never giving up again! I see the future and I’m ready for it! Bring it on!
Life can feel like it is moving so fast at times. It feels like May 1st was just yesterday. Yet here we are- and May 31st is approaching quickly. This Life Moment I needed to hit the PAUSE button. I had talked to my husband previously about taking some time to myself at some point during Mother’s Day weekend festivities. As I got closer to the weekend I felt like two nights versus one night was needed. I offered to come back to assist them to get ready for church to ease the load of being a one parent show for the weekend.
My plan was to intertwine my time with rest and working on my favorite projects. I was very optimistic I could do both. I packed my whole life smile (computer, books, arts and crafts, and my water). I love water. I am still a work in progress on the term ‘packing lightly’ 🙄🙄. As I prepared to walk out of the door I felt so strongly that I needed to take my flowers that my father sent me for Mother’s Day. I felt that was weird considering the flowers would be fine without me until I returned. Nevertheless, I grabbed them as I walked out of the door.
First order of business was to water my roses. I did not put them in water after I opened the box and it showed. They were suffering from lack of attention and care. I was hoping that with a little sunshine, love, and some water they would bounce back to life. I decided against having a structured schedule of things to do. I wanted to be able to define in that moment what I wanted to do. The mission was to take care of Angel and embrace the fun of doing just that. Before I was a wife, mom, daughter, sister, and friend – I was Angel. So, I jumped right into my PAUSE moment thinking about some of my favorite things to do and eat.
My PAUSE moment went a little something like this: Eat, sleep, watch tv, listen to music, shop and sleep again. I got absolutely NO work done on my favorite projects. The joke was on me. I just needed to relax. My flowers seemed to be doing a little better too. It was in that moment that I understood why I needed to bring the flowers with me. The flowers were a piece of the puzzle.
Nobody can tell your story better than you can. Telling your story not only helps you to heal but it allows others to voice theirs Healthy Self -HEAL THY SELF. We can all relate, you are not alone. ➡swipe to see, this is evident. Make a change make an impact! Thank you to everyone's support and allowing me to feel free and safe in my own space.
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A blog post I have been meaning to write for a while then after a few questions about my PTSD last night I thought I would sit down today and write this blog. .
If you have ever wondered about PTSD and what it means to me / Why I have it please read this blog. .
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"Marriage; that I call the will of two, to create the one who is more than those who created it." ~ Friedrich Nietzsche~
This. The greatest lesson of #courage and #faith and strength I have witnessed was yesterday, when this remarkable young man, Orson, Elder Wilkins, best friend of my son Colton since 1st grade, and my “bonus son” ever since—stepped on a plane to return to his #mission. This isn’t just any #missionary story, however. (See #mystory today for the full inspiration!)
Both he and my Colton left back in September to serve for 2 years, only to BOTH end up having to come back home for a time, for personal reasons they each needed to work through. Both of them have been ROCK STARS in their diligence and progress and drive to go back and serve, and Orson was finally ready to return to the mission field and given yesterday as his travel date. .
And he went—even though his mother just started on #hospice this week for her battle with #cancer. .
Watching this young man say goodbye to his mother for the last time and walk down to that plane—and watching his mother let him go—was the most heart-wrenching, and courageous, and inspiring thing I have ever witnessed. As his #bonusmom I felt such pride for him and for his mother and father and their entire family. That a 19 year old young man can do this, because he loves the Lord and desires to serve is just.... There are no words. .
I’m posting my pic with his mother, my dear friend Minae, separately, because I want her beautiful spirit to be seen by all. Watch for her picture, and go listen to my story about this. It will inspire you to never take one single moment, experience, person for granted. Never. 💗
We took the photos for #ocfamily magazine almost a year ago. It’s amazing how much has changed in a year: Eli no longer needs a walker, and I was in a crazy accident and gained a walker for a few months. And we’ve had several other really hard life-changing events happen. This year has been so extremely painful (mentally, emotionally and physically) and I wish we didn’t have to walk through so many hard things, but God has also done so many beautiful things this year. This year has stretched me in ways I didn’t know possible. God has shown me time and time again that when I am weak, He is strong. I have not lost hope. I know that His light is shining bright in our darkness #mybrokenmotherhood#elienhancesmylife#beautyinpain
I’ve seen so many amazing places around the world thanks to the game of Basketball. 🏀🙏❤️ Comment where you’re from. 👇
Recently I've found it hard to keep up my consistency and engagement on Instagram... Honestly it's been more about my sanity and self discipline.
This time though, this is self imposed.
With my journey into shooting portraits, I've begun a project that delves into the deepest emotions and stories of myself and my friends which has been incredibly draining and continuously brings me back to places I thought I'd left behind; reliving my moving states.
But I want this. This fuels my passion. .
P.s. A big thanks to @christopher.james for being such an inspiration for shooting portrait, this shot, and indirectly helping to shape how I am currently developing as a photographer.