I turned 27 in the Portland airport. While twenty one of my friends and I ran around checking bags, repacking things, handing out boarding passes, and the like, my birthday came and went. It was uneventful in terms of celebration (aside from my girl Josie coming in clutch with that cupcake), but I saw God in the details.
Take joy, He said. I kept rushing though, tossing things in backpacks, forgetting things, neglecting that. Take joy, He said. Yeah right, I said as I laid on the floor and worried about all the things that were slowly going wrong. Take joy, He said. I can’t, I said, as I stood next to one of our friends whose passport had gotten lost somewhere between the beginning of tsa and the end. Take joy, He said, as Roger called me at the moment when I was almost overcome with emotion.
Hey, Roger literally said, God’s got this.
And when I turned around, she had her passport.
Take joy, Abba said. Celebrate, He said.
And so I did.
Another year of adventures. Back to an island. Here I go.
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Happy happy birthday to the love my life, my amazingly supportive, talented, loving, caring and handsome Husband. Thank you for just being you! I am so proud of the man you are and I cannot wait to finally start our life together. Let’s hope this process is going to end as soon as possible! I look forward to creating new memories & spending birthdays together for the rest of our lives! I love you moo, to infinity and beyond , always and forever ❤️ #birthdayboy
Hey gang, it's me Klover again. Anyways, I was thinking while watching this dope af show on Netflix called Atypical, can I sustain a long lasting relationship? Mainly because it is brought up for the main character, whom does not share the same difficulties i do nor I him, but I found a basis for parallel: I've thought about it for a long while, talked about it with friends, family, my therapist -- can I give my heart to someone, and will I be strong enough to reciprocate that sentiment. I hope so. I really only have thought about love in the last two years, I mean I've held a relationship before I was the way I am now, it lasted seven years which is great and the only reason it ended is because of the way i am now and neither of us understood how to deal with that. But love as a whole seems like something I don't really need, I just want, and I want to just love someone and I don't even expect them to love me back. Of course love has its inherent strings attached, one assumes their partner would hold ambitions, frankly a way to provide, and I can't necessarily say I will be able to offer that in the short term and it gives me too much anxiety to consider the long term of my life and the outcome of it. I do know that I have ambitions, and I work on myself to provide those with fulfillment, i just wonder how much rope will I be given before it hangs me out to dry, to run out of time and then my partner realizes I'm more than they would've wanted to sign up for... I mentioned before, I'm overly honest, real straight forward and I wouldn't have it any other way. I don't try to hide my shadows, I don't live in them, I just lead and they follow and if someone notices them I answer as an open book. I do hope there's a second part to this thought, but until then I guess we'll just have to wait and see what life is like as I finally try swimming again. I know some of you read this, so thanks.
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"You only have to hate me as much as I hate me." How does one confuse one thing for another so easily? Does one purposefully misinterpret someone, or, does one innocently misinterpret someone all the time? I read a meme the other day about introverts, how it is essentially the feeling that everyone is gossiping about you to yourself, or something like that. Anyways. I don't find myself doing that unless I am in large groups of people lately, I have been calmer, I think it is because of my friend, he's setting a give no shits policy that I'm adopting more and more. However, I still catch myself in a loop overthinking, analysing every little thing I say or don't say, of course I stand by "You do you" what if I can't do me? What if me is too terrifying to accept that someone else might like all of myself...? What if, maybe I should be someone else, I mean I am overly honest and it can rub off on people the wrong way in the wrong situations, I do go for the joke above all else because laughter is the key to tranquility, and I do lack confidence to follow through on my ambitions in fear that I will be rejected... I've lost my train if thought... I'm an introvert with ambitions to be an extrovert, to go out and enjoy life without feeling like the walls are closing in or i have to hide who I am inside. Are you who you are, or who you need to be?
Sunset over Portland, Oregon.
It’s been just over two years since I ran the trails of Forest Park yet this city is just as special as I remember it. Rolling hills sprawl out towards Mount Hood, which peers through the haze in the distance. It makes me so happy to be back working with @stayalfred while I check out what’s new in the ‘City of Roses’. #stayalfred#portland
If you’re at all interested in the speciality coffee scene, you may have noticed the use of “Cascara” popping up recently. But what exactly is this stuff?
Cascara is Spanish for “skin” or “husk.” Coffee beans themselves are the seed of a fruit– typically referred to as the coffee cherry🍒 The seeds are removed from the fruit, which is usually discarded. However, these fruit skins can also be dried and then brewed as a beverage that is somewhere in between tea and coffee.
Although it comes from the coffee plant, Cascara doesn’t actually taste much like coffee. It has a much more rich-fruity flavor to it. My friends at @newdealpdx collaborated with local roaster @wateravecoffee to produce a delicious Cascara Liqueur, which I used for this cocktail👌🏼 Keep an eye out for more recipes though using this unique and delicious new bottle!
Bark Twice if You’re in Milwaukee
1 ¼ oz blended scotch (@monkeyshoulder)
½ oz Cascara Liqueur from @newdealpdx
1 tsp orgeat (@bgreynolds)
2 dashes of absinthe (@oregonspiritdistillers)
3 dashes @pdxbitters Pitch Dark Cacao bitters
Stir with ice, strain and serve over a large cube. No garnish 👌🏼