#TLDR do you get ugly and mean when you start to achieve your goals?
Finding the light. In a world that's so noisey and crowded it can often feel like you're not wanted, not being heard or not even being seen. This feeling is prevalent in women and honestly doesn't seem to get that much easier when you begin climbing the ladder to success.💷
On Friday I got some excellent news 😍like the kind of news that takes off a huge burden I'd been carrying for a few weeks and for the first time in several months I felt true relief, and happiness. 😆
Guys I found the f*cking light 💡and instead of spending the weekend basking in it I let fear and don't creep in and I was mean. I said mean things and behaved I'm an unkind way to someone I love. I'm not sure what it is about success and achieving your goals that brings out the ugly but it brings out the saboteur in my and I'm actively challenging it. 🥋
In January I had this fantastic reading with @leonanicholeblack who told me that if I continue to ignore my feelings and emotions I'd continue to suffer. She was right. Now I embrace the ugly and then I check it and mentally figure out how to move past it as it can't come with me on my journey. My bag is full. The door is closed. So I share this to ask you what have you noticed about yourself once you reach your goals?
What you’ve done becomes the judge of what you’re going to do — especially in other people’s minds. When you’re traveling, you are what you are right there and then. People don’t have your past to hold against you. No yesterdays on the road #wolfie
I came to this city with no expectations of anything working out really.
I came because I needed to change my environment.
I came to peruse my childhood dreams of dancing and acting.
I came to meet new people and create a community of humans that support and encourage me to be my best self.
I came to grow personally and professionally.
I came to heal and return to my natural state of thrivingness.
Now here I am less than 4 months in and I have found my dream apartment, I’ve found an acting and dance school I’ll be attending in the fall, I’ve started to meet a fab group of peeps who are driven entrepreneurs and personal development junkies 😜 and “just like that” I’m feeling better than I have in over a year.
The timing aspect of life is one of those unknown variables. Sometimes things take months and years, others seem to happen over night.
So I guess what I’ve learned is that it’s best not to get to attached to how quickly it’s all supposed to happen.
This part of life will maybe always be a mystery and that’s kind of fucking cool.
"Sometimes you are going to miss a person who was an almost to you. And feel sad because there is no name for that feeling. You just feel it in a way that makes you tired to your very bones." #moonlovers🌛
I hope you fall in love
With someone who always texts back and never lets
You fall asleep thinking you’re
I hope you fall in love with someone
Who holds your hand during the scary parts of
Horror movies and burns
Cookies with you when you’re
Too busy dancing around the
I hope you fall in love with
Someone who sees galaxies in your eyes
And hears music in your
I hope you fall in love with someone who
Tickles you and makes you smile
On hard days and on easy
But beyond all that I hope
You fall in love with someone
Who will never leave you behind
And who will never take you
For granted, someone who
Will stand by you when you’re
Right and stand by you
When you’re wrong,
Someone who has seen you at your worst
And has loved you
I hope you fall in love
With someone who
Kisses you in the rain
And hugs you in the cold and
Wouldn’t have you any other
Wouldn’t It Be Wonderful, l.h.k. 😍
Photo courtesy @shootwithkitty ❤ credits to the models too @den_____den and @misspsychocat .